A lot has happened this year as you said and it's true. I was finally free from my stepdad's disgusting behavior after 5 years because he was the worst ever (my mom and dad came back together 4 years ago luckily). I have been doing better in my therapy. I got to come out of the closet to my parents and I am lucky that my gf is here for me and supporting me. She was the one who made me happier. I dreamt that my dead bff forgave me because before she died, we fought and I felt guilty and that I'm the reason she was gone so that forgiveness gave me assurance. I know this sounded a bit ironic but it isn't :)