No need to apologize. You are an amazing person and you're a massive part of why this site was able to take off like it did and kept going. Even now, when so many of us are less than present; your kindness, leadership and enthusiasm remain palpable. I'm glad you're taking mental health so seriously, nothing is more important. Always here (both me and everyone here) for whenever you need to chat about anything serious, not at all serious or 100% Gaga.
So many hugs, can't wait to see how much better you're going to feel through this journey.